My Journey with CfaN: A Testament of Faith and Growth

Hi Church!!

WOW, it’s already been six weeks since I left the UK to start my journey with CfaN. Day after day, I have met with the one true living God. I honestly feel so blessed to be here, but I want to be real and vulnerable about what it’s actually looked like so far. Pictures can make everything seem perfect, but that’s not reality. God has been doing a deep, deep work in me—and let me tell you, it doesn’t always look pretty!

I’ve been stretched, pulled out of my comfort zone, and put into situations I’ve never been exposed to before. But from that, I’ve grown in Christ.

The First Two Weeks: A Deep Connection

In the first two weeks, I basically spent the whole time crying out of deep adoration for God. We went through a deliverance course to remove any roadblocks that could stand in the way of walking out our calling. Pride and greed were sifted out, and I realised I was constantly looking at myself and not the Spirit. I came with the mindset that I’d try every area of ministry, pick the one I was best at, and do that for the rest of my life. But thank you, Jesus, that I no longer think like that. I’d say the Megan who left the UK is still on the floor in the ministry centre—I realised what it really means to die to yourself.

The second Sunday here, I attended a Revive Night with Daniel Kolenda. Levi Lutz preached a profound message, and that evening there was a fire tunnel. At first, my pride told me it was silly—“Why would I walk through a tunnel of people to experience the Holy Spirit?” I literally thought this was the most American thing I’d ever heard of, and I didn’t want to do it. But as Levi spoke, something changed in my heart. I desired God like never before.

When I went through, I was hit by the Spirit. I ended up on the floor, crying and laughing with God for an hour. Then I went back through again, and the same thing happened. That night, I was completely delivered from the fear of man. I posted a short testimony on Instagram about how Jesus set me free, and SO many non-believers messaged me asking about Him! That’s when my joy of sharing the gospel was restored.

And let me tell you—when you pray, “Lord, interrupt my week with ways to share your love with people,” expect it to happen. I’ve had card machines stop working, strangers come up asking for help, people smoking weed ask me to pray for them, and even traffic lights staying red until we got out to speak to the homeless. These people are touched not because of who I am but because of who God is in me. Every day, I have to die to myself. When Jesus said, "Pick up your cross and follow me," He literally meant, follow me to my crucifixion. But dying to myself means I’m alive in His Spirit.

Navigating Community Challenges

Weeks two and three brought new challenges in living with other people. I love my sisters in the house, but there was a big attack on our unity. God had to show me how to love and respect people even when they don’t extend it back. Through being vulnerable with one person, reconciliation came, and God taught me how to deal with strife even when others don’t want to talk it through.

The biggest challenge, though? Being generous with food! For so long, I had a poverty mindset. I clung tightly to what I bought with my own money, being stingy instead of showing God’s heart. But I realised if you’re not generous, you have a heart problem. Ouch! God tested me with this: I’d buy fruit for the week, and then He’d tell me to give it away to someone. At first, I was reluctant, but it slowly got easier (still not at the point of giving away my whole dinner, haha—but little steps, right?). Living with girls who are all so selfless has highlighted my own selfishness, but in a good way.

And as a testimony of His goodness, after a week or two of walking this out, I met a couple, Victor and Lisa. We started chatting about London, and since then, they’ve kind of taken me under their wing. As I was being generous in small ways (without them knowing it was something I struggled with), they began bringing me crates of food. Of course, then I was challenged to share that too! But I’ve learnt that when you hold onto something tightly, your hands aren’t open to receive the bigger gifts God wants to give. John Wimber’s quote changed my whole perspective: “Everything we have is on loan from the King. The question is not, how much money will I give to God? But, how much of God’s money will I keep for myself?”

Total Surrender: Weeks Three and Four

Weeks three and four were all about total surrender. By this point, good news—I’d stopped crying! But I was being pushed further out of my comfort zone. I told God, “I’m done trying to hold the pen to write the story of my life. My life is Yours. I only want to do what You have for me.” I let go of things that mattered a lot to me, like what my ministry might look like, dreams of having a farm in the countryside, and even starting a family. That Thursday, God downloaded something into me that He couldn’t have trusted me with before I laid those things down.

I also began growing closer with my brothers and sisters in class. Together, we’ve learnt to be like little children before our Father, discovering what it really means to be His sons and daughters. It’s so encouraging when He puts people around you who are going through the same struggles; it reminds you that you’re not alone.

The Exciting Transformation: Weeks Five and Six

Now, this is where it gets exciting. I’ve shared a lot of what God has been bringing me through, but now I can say I’ve lived through the death (Friday), the burial (Saturday), and the resurrection (Sunday). I hope that analogy makes sense! I am so grateful to be here and in awe of what He’s already done. I’ve rediscovered the joy of my salvation, and honestly, I am so in love with Jesus that I just can’t stop speaking about Him! While I wait for His second coming, I want to tell everyone about His first. The gospel is the power of salvation, so how could I keep that to myself?

God also revealed to me that He is starting an awakening in the UK. My assignment, like yours, is to show people the heart of God and walk out heaven on earth.

A New Chapter: The Second Year at CfaN

And so for some exciting news: I’m going to do a second year at CfaN! God spoke to me very clearly on this, and it actually started with a dream I had in week two. In the dream, my little brother Freddy and I were on a launch pad. We’d be launched into the air over gates, run back, and it happened again and again. Later, when Matheus described the second year, he called it “a launch pad to fly into your calling.” That confirmed it—I want to fly into my calling and be fully equipped for every good work.

On top of that, I’ve been invited to go to Thailand this November with the CfaN team for their first-ever gospel crusade there! Before this year, my dream had been to travel around Southeast Asia after college. By saying yes to being here, I thought I’d given up that desire. But in His kindness, God has given it back to me, only now with a purpose. It’s a five-day crusade, leaving Orlando on the 18th of November and returning to England around the 25th. I’ll share more soon, but for this trip, I’m trusting God for £2000.

Brothers and sisters, if you feel led to give to this move of God, please know you’re not giving to me, but to Him. He’s preparing an ordinary girl with a passion to see people saved. Your seed will bear eternal fruit.

Go fund me account https://gofund.me/f18086d01

OR

you can send straight to my bank account (no fee)

Name: Megan Hill

Account number: 16359661

Sort code: 11-07-08

REF: HARVEST

Note: This will go towards the Thailand crusade, and anything extra I will save for year two at CfaN.

I am so grateful for your prayers and support. Thank you for being part of what God is doing—souls are being saved, and it’s only going to increase from here!

With love,

Megan